End of story...really.

I am currently stuck in 2 directions that are completely opposite of each other. One in which I know God does not approve of..and honestly, have I cared? Seems I haven't.

Then when I turn the radio on, his voice is loud and clear. I so much want what he so patiently wants for me but it comes to a point that when you know you haven't been honest and pure with him, it seems selfish to reach back out when you know you will end up doing what you were originally doing.. again and again and again.

I keep being told it is not about how we feel but who He is...but I think it is human nature to FEEL. Feeling is partly what helps us with decisions. I feel like He is angry with me. He is always in my thoughts during my actions and I don't choose Him after the decision has been made.

Conviction overwhelms me. It only takes 2 seconds to say something I know He would not approve of. and Eternity to get back to where I hope to be.Where I used to be.

I miss the burst of energy I would get when I would learn about Him. I couldn't live without diving into who He was everyday. It was like a way to spiritually survive. I have since then dug a whole..lit it on fire, and jumped in.

Album: My Paper Heart
Artist: Francesca Battistelli

Don’t know how it is You looked at me
And saw the person that I could be
Awakening my heart
Breaking through the dark
Suddenly Your grace

(Chorus)
Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful

Now there’s a joy inside I can’t contain
But even perfect days can end in rain
And though it’s pouring down
I see You through the clouds
Shining on my face

(Chorus)

I have come undone
But I have just begun
Changing by Your grace

(Chorus)



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[twenty-one yrs young, blogging on and off since 2002, loves photography, God,friends, photoshop, strawberry poptarts, designer, life.]

hi I'm mollie & in my spare time i like to draw hearts. i enjoy the simple things in life and feel i deserve the best just like everyone else. i have not found "the one" yet, but when i do, it will be worth the wait and everything i've learned so far. i have no regrets.

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I have faith. Faith in our wondrous capacity for hope and good, love & trust, healing & forgiveness. Faith in the blessing of our infinite ability to wonder, pray, feel & think. I have faith. Faith in the infinite possibilities of the human spirit.- Starbucks Cup

"Don't you Judge Me. Don't you dare. One day I know I'll sit before a just God. Will you be there? Or will your false, your short sighted views hold you back from real truth? All your views leave you hostage, from love, from the real truth. Held Hostage! Don't point your finger like I'm the fake, You let me in this room-that was your first mistake. You've got nothing. It's okay. I was there once so don't point the finger like I'm the fake- you let us in and that was your last mistake. Follow Me. It might be your last "mistake" -Blame it on the Holy Rollers
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