4:35 AM, Wednesday, March 25, 2009
"In the Midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you"-by Deepak Chopra
I hope that with this post I can look back in a few years and laugh at myself because I will then be successful in what I have chosen to do.
But as of right now..I am scared, and lost. My dad keeps asking me what I want to do with my life. I don't know. My plan was never to go graduate school but if I do choose psychology, I will have to. I am also being pushed into photography..I absolutely LOVE photography..but will I be successful with such competition? I look at people's photos over at Flickr and it makes my work mediocre. But I also realize that it all photography looked the same, there wouldn't be anything worth looking at. I want people to look at something I have done and immediately know who took it.
I never thought in my life I would say this but I miss being that emotional 14 year old girl. Remember? The 14 year old girl that complained how hard and unfair life was. At that time, my life just went on...I didn't have to make any decisions and no one asked me on a daily basis what I wanted to do- It wasn't expected of me. I stayed up all night, slept all day...went to school and got what was required done. That was it. Sounds boring but not when I am now needing to now make a decision that will ultimately affect the rest of my life. Especially with the stress that will come with trying to reach that goal.
I hope I can make the right decision.
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